I know its synthetic, but i still feel like its real, like if i can just never forget this memory I can continue through life with this zen like understanding.

My first roll, no one ever forgets their first roll, its synthetic but its the most magical feeling, of just, love, pure synthetic love.

Im sitting here in English, plucking the hairs from my arm and it feels like love, my skin turns a little red from forcibly removing the the hairs, but yet i like the tone of red on my arm, perhaps i should draw a little red on my arm each day so it will always look just like this, this moment is perfect, and i never ever want it to go away.

From every corrupt businessman to every child molesting preist, i love them all because i understand them all.

The worst thing is, now, i know i will never feel that again, not after the other 100 or so pills i took, nothing will ever give me that same insight and understanding again. HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY.